It’s time I accept it.
I called destiny – and it did not take my call.
Perhaps it’s just not my time.
Maybe I wasn’t meant for greatness.
Or, greatness in the super hero sense of the word.
I think my ordinary life is pretty great.
But I had been led to think there was something more.
Something big.
No, something HUGE.
HUGE I tell you.
You know how it started, it happened twice.
Bit by a snake two times.
Yes, TWO SNAKES !!!
I felt the pain of the bite the 2nd time.
I still believe in my heart of hearts that the first time was the snake marking me.
Letting the other snakes know, “Here’s our guy”.
I felt I had been “chosen”.
I felt the snake world had sought me out.
Me !!!!
But it hasn’t happened.
The snake like superpowers I thought was going to manifest did not happen.
Nope.
I’m just ordinary Jim.
Or, as Freya calls me, BigJimmy.
I have reached the conclusion, as difficult as it is to accept, the superpowers that have eluded me just aren’t going to happen.
Damn you Peter Parker.
He made it seem so easy.
Did it happen to him over night?
Well, if not overnight, it certainly didn’t take over a year.
You might be asking yourself, “How do you know it’s not going to happen?”
You might want to tell me, “Jim, just give it more time”.
NO.
I have accepted my fate.
Or rather, I have accepted my lack of fate.
The first hit to my psyche was the other day when I saw a tiny frog.
And I felt nothing.
Nothing at all.
No hunger, no urge to lunge at the little guy.
I just looked at him and watched him go on his merry little way.
But then today sealed the deal.
More than a seal, it slammed the door shut.
There I was, in my happy place, building something in my driveway.
Just me and my saws and drills and tape measure (Big Blue) doing my thing.
I had to move a few things and there he was.
Biggest cricket I have seen.
And he was taunting me.
He didn’t jump away in fear.
No, he hung out for a bit.
I stared at him and I thought, I’ll get my phone for a pic, surely he’ll be gone by then.
But no, he hung around.
Just hanging out, not the least bit afraid of me.
NOTHING.
Now, keep in mind, it was approaching dinner time, and sure, I could eat.
But seeing the cricket, it just didn’t occur to me to strike and go to town munching on that big juicy fellow.
Nothing.
Just not there.
That’s when it finally struck home for good.
Time to give it up.
My snake like superpowers are not meant to be.
But I’m still a young man.
*Side Note 1 – STOP THAT -I CAN STILL CALL MYSELF A YOUNG MAN !!!!
Maybe destiny has another thing in store for me.
Destiny, I’ll be calling again.
This time – PICK UP !!!!!
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